Had a crappy day in the gym. I was PT-less but should have been ok. The target was ….
I checked video of what felt like ass-to-grass 135%…. And it was barely parallel. I worked up anyway . 140 and 145 were about the same. I finished with the triples and consoled myself that while my depth wasn’t cutting it, that I had done the work and it would at least contribute to improvement.
I told JW the same. He wanted to know why I had not backed off on the weight and focused on depth. 😦
And its cause I didn’t have depth anyway….
Oops. No, I did not. And we had talked about it. Argh!
So if I feel good tomorrow…. I’ll go in and just do something light… But hang out at the bottom. Like me told too.
And that is why I still need a PT.
Ate a hot dog today. really looked forward to it. paid for it all afternoon.
In the last 2 weeks, I’ve been called ‘skinny’ twice. Not that I am skinny…. technically, I am still overweight. But it was an acknowledgement of my progress, and meant to be flattering. And truly; it was; I felt the smile immediately rise.
Still; each time it left me thinking after : why THAT word? It’s kind of weird that somehow that’s a compliment. And I am not shitting on anyone intent; after all, I was flattered…. but there is something a bit off, I think, that the word has some sort of value associated with it. I can’t quite place my feelings, but…. I have decided I don’t like that word.
Was in Vancouver this week; did go to the gym once in the 3 days, but the numbers were sad, sad, sad.
Going today, and again tomorrow early AM. I guess we’ll see if I have anything in the tank at all. 🙂
I waited to long to sign up for the meet in August. It’s full. I feel gutted (which is a pretty extreme reaction. But I guess a good sign, as had I felt relieved I’d question my motivation…)
I have asked Jerimiah for advice; if I can make a July event in terms of readiness. I am not worried about some big number; just want to be able to hit my best numbers or close to them for the day. Right now, I am not regularly doing anything near my 1RM, so that’ll take a bit.
And I need to lose more weight to get into the 63kg class, which I think is somewhere around my sweet-spot for day-to-day comfort in my own skin. Based on my current trajectory, I can be there by July(ish) IF IF IF IF I am a bit more disciplined when I travel (that’s those up-ticks.)
Won’t be getting to the gym today. Already @ the airport (7:30 AM, and at the gate…), and arrive to DFW just in time to check in and get ready for cocktails.
It’s funny how addicted I have become to the gym. It isn’t even just that I notice if I don’t go (after the fact), but…I actually CRAVE it. Such a strange little anticipation feeling… I’d go so far as to say an urgency.
Anyway; @ a trade show for 4 days, so … I brought gym stuff, but doubt I’ll really get into the gym. Let’s see how it goes!
lower back …. ugh. And I hardly did anything. Just the de-rack and PING…