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Worrying about the wrong thing….

Had a crappy day in the gym. I was PT-less but should have been ok.  The target was ….

I checked video of what felt like ass-to-grass 135%…. And it was barely parallel.  I worked up anyway . 140 and 145 were about the same.   I finished with the triples and consoled myself that while my depth wasn’t cutting it, that I had done the work and it would at least contribute to improvement.

I told JW the same.  He wanted to know why I had not backed off on the weight and focused on depth.   😦

And its cause I didn’t have depth anyway….

And then….

Oops.  No, I did not.  And we had talked about it.  Argh!

So if I feel good tomorrow…. I’ll go in and just do something light… But hang out at the bottom.  Like me told  too.

And that is why I still need a PT.


what’s the skinny?


In the last 2 weeks, I’ve been called ‘skinny’ twice.  Not that I am skinny…. technically, I am still overweight.  But it was an acknowledgement of my progress, and meant to be flattering. And truly; it was;  I felt the smile immediately rise.

Still; each time it left me thinking after :  why THAT word?  It’s kind of weird that somehow that’s a compliment.  And I am not shitting on anyone intent;  after all, I was flattered…. but there is something a bit off, I think, that the word has some sort of value associated with it. I can’t quite place my feelings, but…. I have decided I don’t like that word.

oh crap….

weight trendI waited to long to sign up for the meet in August.  It’s full.  I feel gutted (which is a pretty extreme reaction.  But I guess a good sign, as had I felt relieved I’d question my motivation…)

I have asked Jerimiah for advice;  if I can make a July event in terms of readiness.  I am not worried about some big number; just want to be able to hit my best numbers or close to them for the day.  Right now, I am not regularly doing anything near my 1RM, so that’ll take a bit.

And I need to lose more weight to get into the 63kg class, which I think is somewhere around my sweet-spot for day-to-day comfort in my own skin.   Based on my current trajectory, I can be there by July(ish) IF IF IF IF I am a bit more disciplined when I travel (that’s those up-ticks.)



Won’t be getting to the gym today. Already @ the airport (7:30 AM, and at the gate…), and arrive to DFW just in time to check in and get ready for cocktails.

It’s funny how addicted I have become to the gym.    It isn’t even just that I notice if I don’t go (after the fact), but…I actually  CRAVE it. Such a strange little anticipation feeling… I’d go so far as to say an urgency.

Anyway; @ a trade show for 4 days, so … I brought gym stuff, but doubt I’ll really get into the gym.  Let’s see how it goes!